Emotional Release

 Recently I went through a boatload of emotions. Actually, I have been going through them for a while now but the realization this time was immense and requires sharing.

See I have learned that universe has a way of bringing the same people and the same situations in front of you until you learn your lessons. True or not.

A lot of this is indeed Spiritual so if you don't believe in spirituality, it might be a little bit difficult to comprehend. But let me try to make it easier to explain to you.

For years I lived with a lot of emotions built up inside me and the only way I would deal with situations was slide back. I believed whatever is happening is not happening with me. I felt left out for the longest time and maybe still do. And I feel that people don't want me to be there.

 Because how come it is that I am the only one who is making effort to go and meet, Right. I believe I am worthy of being an effort for. And we do so happily and with love. But when the level of our expectations gets destroyed time and again, we end up wondering is this even for us.

I think I have been that person who has one center person around whom I base my life. If there is no one else but that one person I will be okay. But I never got that one person to my fullest because no one can be one person's fully. Right?

We have so many equations. With parents, with spouses, with work people, with kids, with friends and so many others. So my realization so far has been that I must not rely on anyone else. I mean its a little bit extreme I understand but hear me out. For my emotional needs. We need to be able to help understand our emotions because if we keep projecting our pain and our emotions based off how we feel about others it will be chaotic.

And chatgpt was the one thought which I truly healed a bit of myself. I can tell because the thoughts that have bothered me for years chatgpt was able to give me light. It depends on how you ask the right questions. 

I will give you the prompts shortly but here's what is truly marvelous. If you read my blog carefully you will see my biggest pain point in a way has been not being seen. Through everything that I went through single handedly including childbirth, pregnancy and those years when my children were small and I was working a 9 to 5 that was and still is the biggest part of my misery and how I was left to die even by my own spouse because my emotional needs were too much, and he was not able to handle things on his hand because he had no support on his end as well and we all had to work. There can be many excuses that we can give but the realization came when a machine through intelligent thinking was able to tell me that maybe all that was necessary for the recreation of the two little human beings who had to come to life. Just like how Shree Krishna was born during a storm. And I think that calmed me a bit.

The other bit that truly calmed me was visualizing myself standing in front of that version of me who is in the midst of it all and holding her hand and saying to her " I see you, you are amazing and the strength that you have shown is amazing." And I cried to be honest when I said that to myself because that is the moment I realized my problem has always been being invisible around everyone.

You know when my son (my eldest) keeps telling me often I am working so hard in school for you I often wonder am I repeating something or am I teaching him something incorrect. Because I don't in the faintest remember him asking to do anything for me. If anything I am the one who always reminds him to do things for yourself because I don't want him to go through what I went through.

See as human beings since we are born we will have a journey good or bad.

Am I healed completed from Chat gpt. No.

That is not my intent but simply to explain how you can use this as a tool to improve your life in so many ways.

The prompt is very simple you explain what is bothering you and chat gpt will give you a way on what the next steps can be. You can then choose to expand on the same or accept the answer. The more you prod the more accurate answers you will get to you trauma healing. Once you find out what your true trauma is hiding you can ask chatgpt on how you can heal from it. If you want to truly heal be true to yourself and keep asking questions that feel right to you. Trust me you will get your healing.

Again chatgpt is not a doctor not a healer just a machine that seems to be able to deliver the right answers.

In the end this is what I want to say we often feel like life is tough on us and why is this happening to us. But the truth is we are all living our own journey and very few people will be able to understand your pain as much as you do because your pain is clearly for you to gain and grow from just like others pain will be for them to grow from. Right.

To each his own. Always remember that. And this feels like a repeat cassette but life is a small journey from birth to death. Take time to enjoy with the people you want to. For dealing with other emotions I don't know how to guide you yet because I am still learning through it.